I can’t believe it’s been a whole week since I posted. Work is vying for my attention. But I am going to stay focused; on the riding, eating 2000 times a day and blogging about it. I made a commitment to myself. If I can’t keep commitments to myself, what good am I to any one? Weigh-in this morning, 166lbs pre-ride, 165lbs post-ride. This is a very big milestone for me today. According to my goal chart, I am supposed to be at 158.5lbs. 6.5lbs off track. I was supposed to be at 165lbs on June 8th. That’s 3 weeks off track. Sad, I didn’t stay on track. But I will focus on the positive. I’m not 175lbs or even 170lbs.
I remember the last time I weighed 165lbs. I thought I’d never get back to this. It’s disheartening in a way, because 165lbs on me is fat. And that is so unnecessary. I never should have let it get this out of hand. But, it is what it is. Now I want to focus my energy on losing the weight.
Hey, this will be fun… how about gross fat pictures of me I’m too scared to post anywhere else??? Sure, there is no humility left once you’ve blogged to the world about your fatness. Why not!
This was me in May 2009. 180lbs, largest I’ve ever been in my whole life. It was 88` that day, really hot. But I was safe, cuz I had my fat clothes on. Long sleeves & long pants. Baggy & dark coloured. It is my hope that I never get to this weight again in my life.
(oh, and for all you ‘calories in – calories burned=weight loss’ dummies: That is me, eating 1800 calories a day & riding 175 miles a week. The only thing that has enabled me to lose the weight is the meds I’m on. Kinda blows yer little formula all to hell, eh??)
This is me during the Tour De Cure May 2008. 173lbs, not a pretty sight. So to those of you still arguing with me that I’m not fat, here’s the proof!
This is me riding the MS150 in 2006. 161lbs. That was back when I thought THIS was fat! Who knew it would get worse. Wow, look at how thin Guy was then…
The positive. There are clothes in my closet I have not worn in a long time that now will fit me. A whole group of ‘fat’ clothes I bought when I first became fat. I haven’t been able to wear them until now because I was too big. Making some progress. It’s little steps, and I am thankful to God for each one of them he grants me.. This is cool. And look what else I found in my closet this morning:
Not only did I find it, I also used it. See the ‘fat-girl’ impressions on the carpet??? I did core training. 1 five-set, 25 repititions group. And 1 one-minute plank. It was amazing!
I think it may have been last week I said I was going to start strength & core training. I have to find some time tonight to do my shoulder workout. This is one of the last habits I need to build. Remember back here: Habits. I have to find a way to make weight training doable. I already enjoy it alot, but I haven’t been able to get started with it again. Post up a comment if you have any idea what it may be.
I had an epiphany last week. But it’s such a big one, I haven’t had time to write about it. Maybe later this week…