Weigh in today: 167lbs pre-ride & 165lbs post ride. I am weighing post ride to encourage myself. It’s been a really hectic week in the business world for me & although I have kept up with most of my riding, my eating has not been good. But it’s reassuring to see that I can eat my way through any & every difficult moment. ; )
My last word on Fat Acceptance. I m glad I found out about FA, but I am done. I learned some good things. Online I met some really special people whom I hope have blessed & happy lives. [April D, keep up that beautiful dancing, you are a truly special spirit.] But as a whole, I just will never get it. In visiting their sites, I’ve seen too much aggression & what I can only call almost hatefulness. I’ve been ignored, attacked and argued to death to the point of hilarity. For the most part, what people warned me about is accurate, either you are with them… or they’re against you. Or, they just have a very narrow view of things and are not welcoming to anything other than what they agree with. It amazes me how so many of them demand acceptance from others, but think all thin people are hateful bigots, regardless if they know them or not. It takes way too much energy to work through not offending them when you try to openly & sincerely share your thoughts & feelings. (please notice I said feelings… that is what I tried to share.) I walk away a little enlightened but exhausted & drained completely.
I am coming to the end of a very stressful month of productive work. I need to get into an especially positive place with this blog, my training and my mental outlook. I ran across some running blogs & some foodie blogs that talk about & promote great food, enjoyable exersize and wise training. It made me feel good to hear the diffirent stories & lives of people just like you & me, but at the same time, so different.
Positive energy flow, positive energy flow, positive energy flow…
I go onlineto learn, share and exchange good energy. That is just what I found at these new blogs. I will be adding an additional blogroll to these great blogs next week. I ran across one where the woman talked about her different faces as she’s losing weight. She’s photo-logging the changes. She was truly beautiful & that got me thinking. So many times over the last 10 years I have spoken with overweight people about the person trapped inside them. Today I remembered that I am one of those with a beautiful woman trapped inside an excess of adipose tissue. I want to show her to you:
Isn’t she beautiful. (Please keep in mind as you read, I believe all women are beautiful, it’s not a comparative statement.) I saw her in my face today, in a reflection in a store window. As I was walking up, I looked in the glass & there was her face. Then I realized it was me. It made me happy!
Something else happened today that hasn’t happened in a really long time. As I was walking up to another store, a man ran to get the door for me & said “Wow, you’ve got beautiful calves… oh, I’m sorry, I wasn’t trying to be rude.” I wanted to tell him: Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!!! But I’m a happily married woman, so I just smiled a little and walked inside. It has been almost 2 years since anyone has given me a sincere compliment, it was cool.
For all of us who have gained a little too much weight, I know there is someone deep down inside you. She’s exactly like you – only without the issues & problems brought on by the weight. Not only do others view me differently with the extra weight, I view myself differently as well. Maybe you do too.
Onward. I am removing as much negativity from this blog of mine as I can. I use this blog for personal reasons, I’m not trying to build a following. But having someone stop by & comment has been very enjoyable & insightful. It helps me to keep my perspective open & fresh. Lately, I’ve been so busy with work. That’s why I haven’t been posting that much. Time to change direction!!
On Monday, I will start adding different information to keep me (and maybe you, too.) motivated. I’m going totally Zen & happy, and will refresh my energy to continue my success. Hey, I’ve lost 15lbs, I’m at a success point!! I’m going to keep that positive feeling going…
Have an excellent & blessed weekend.